Should I call her Danielle.... or Pie?!!?

Welcome to my beautiful misery...

I’m in so much pain right now, emotionally

I havent cried this much since my grandfather died

I feel so betrayed by somebody I dedicated myself to and I feel like the knife in my back is being twisted right now

I dont know how somebody can be so cruel and heartless and selfish

I’m so beyond hurt right now, I’m light years beyond hurt, I’m in pieces right now

I keep falling for the most heartless people

I kinda thought, and was hoping I was done crying about this shit. I really need a distraction right now, my mind is too idle.

I’m so sick of crying over the same shit… I spent the last 17 months living a dream, I just want my “happily ever after” but it’s obvious that won’t happen.

I have the right intentions with the wrong people, I guess. I’ve given so much of myself, my heart, emotions, tears, energy, and commitment to this that it hurts I got none in return… like, EVER, from ANYONE I’ve ever fallen in love with. I have to stop giving so much of myself to people. I make myself an open book and make myself vulnerable for people to come in and take advantage of my heart.

I think I’m done with love for another 5 years.

—

On repeat… for no reason at all

My babies. We were triplets. They both have my eyes :-)

Lady Antebellum

—Wanted You More

I kept waiting on a reason
And a call that never came
No, I never saw it coming
Something in you must have changed

All the words unspoken, promises broken
I cried for so long
Wasted too much time, should’ve seen the signs
Now I know just what went wrong

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now, I’m sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

All the nights we spent, just talking
Of the things we wanted out of life
Making plans and dreams together
Wish I’d seen, I was just too blind

My heart was open, exposed and hoping
For you to lay it on the line
In the end it seemed
There was no room for me
Still, I tried to change your mind

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now, I’m sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

Oh, I don’t need you
I don’t need you anymore

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now, I’m sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

I don’t need you
I don’t need you anymore

b4l-squaredyouknow: biptch: militaryfit-bombshell: Super Silky Summer Legs Next time you are feeling down, about to binge, going on a date, or just need to pamper yourself, do this. I just did it and I can not stop rubbing my legs together. It feels like I paid for that over expensive pedicure at the salon. Ingredients 1 1/4 C Sugar (Yup, plain, good-ol’ white sugar) 1/2 C Oil (I used olive oil, but you can use any oil, coconut oil, baby oil, canola oil) 3 tablespoons Citrus (Lime or lemon) 1-2 Razors Mix everything together in a bowl. Soak your legs in the tub for 5 minutes. Shave your legs. Rub some of this mixture all over your legs. The sugar will help rub off all dirt and dead skin. Rub, rub. Feels like a mini massage. Rinse it all off, shave again. I would use one razor per leg if you have two. You will be rinsing this razor a lot. I was GROSSED out by the amount of dead skin I was “shaving” off. It was insane! Trust me, you’ll see. Rub your legs again! Second coat of wax, oh yeah. Rinse off! You can use a mild soap to help get some of the oil off. Lotion your legs up, and feel the silkiness! Now this isn’t just geared to ladies…. guys, if you want to get lucky, I suggest you offer to rub your ladies’ feet with this mix too. It feels awesome, and when you get lucky, you will be thanking me that her rough grandma feet aren’t cutting your legs, if ya know what I’m saying… hahaha. I have silky arm pits too!! Try it, I swear, You will want everyone to touch your legs. I JUST DID THIS AND IT IS THE BEST THING 10/10 WOULD RECCOMEND want to try this.

b4l-squaredyouknow:

biptch:

militaryfit-bombshell:

Super Silky Summer Legs

Next time you are feeling down, about to binge, going on a date, or just need to pamper yourself, do this. I just did it and I can not stop rubbing my legs together. It feels like I paid for that over expensive pedicure at the salon.

Ingredients

  • 1 1/4 C Sugar (Yup, plain, good-ol’ white sugar)
  • 1/2 C Oil (I used olive oil, but you can use any oil, coconut oil, baby oil, canola oil)
  • 3 tablespoons Citrus (Lime or lemon)
  • 1-2 Razors
  1. Mix everything together in a bowl.
  2. Soak your legs in the tub for 5 minutes.
  3. Shave your legs.
  4. Rub some of this mixture all over your legs. The sugar will help rub off all dirt and dead skin. Rub, rub. Feels like a mini massage.
  5. Rinse it all off, shave again. I would use one razor per leg if you have two. You will be rinsing this razor a lot. I was GROSSED out by the amount of dead skin I was “shaving” off. It was insane! Trust me, you’ll see.
  6. Rub your legs again! Second coat of wax, oh yeah.
  7. Rinse off! You can use a mild soap to help get some of the oil off.
  8. Lotion your legs up, and feel the silkiness!

Now this isn’t just geared to ladies…. guys, if you want to get lucky, I suggest you offer to rub your ladies’ feet with this mix too. It feels awesome, and when you get lucky, you will be thanking me that her rough grandma feet aren’t cutting your legs, if ya know what I’m saying… hahaha.

I have silky arm pits too!!

Try it, I swear, You will want everyone to touch your legs.

I JUST DID THIS AND IT IS THE BEST THING 10/10 WOULD RECCOMEND

want to try this.

Cutest moment this weekend:

Me and Jordyn walk outside together hand in hand to meet James.
James: Hi Jordie!
Jordyn: It’s JORDYN!
Me:  

Help me Lord, please… its so hard to put all my faith in you when I like to be in control of my own circumstances… but please, please… grant me favor, work a miracle, increase my faith in you so I can ease my mind and not stress about things that should be completely in your hands. Please Lord… I don’t know how I’m going to manage under my current circumstances and I don’t know how to keep from stressing or not take matters into my own hands. But please… please Lord. Grant me favor and give me peace… I absolutely cannot do this alone and I’m going to stop trying, because I don’t know how much more I can take.